I like the rainy days at home....
I know that most people are on a huge rant of complaining about the weather these days. I had hoped to go to the beach on my last few days off....but ahhhh....I'm also content to spend windy, rainy days in my cozy appartment. I really actually like rainy days. Not so much the dreary ones that are cloudy without any rain, but the ones when it is pouring. I like those ones!
So, on this rainy day, I:
-slept in until noon!
-chatted on the phone with my hubbie and some family members
-will be listening to a teaching cd...the last one of a course I've been taking since January
-finishing off the exam that I have to send in to complete the course
-baking some fruity muffins...yummmmmm
-starting all over again on a resume that I had started and can't find on the computer! (Tomorrow is July and that means that I can start applying for jobs! I gotta be ready!)
-having a relaxing bath/shower
-making some supper for my hubbie and I
-going to the last housegroup for the summer
So, I'm pretty content with the sound of my day. Ahhhh.....
Saturday, June 25, 2005
Babies, babies everywhere!
I worked a 12 today and it was jam packed with excitement! First thing this morning I saw my first delivery of twins! So cute!!!! It was extra special for me, because I kept of thinking about my Shaner who thinks he wants us to have twins one day! Yikes! It's not like you can plan those sort of things! And oooo....so much more work when there is two!
Then I saw another delivery this afternoon. It was insane! We had a mom who had never had a baby before...usually that means they take a long time laboring. Well, she shot from 4 to fully within 2 hours! We weren't prepared at all for delivery, nevermind the fact that we were using one of the tiniest rooms that we can't really deliver in and therefore had to relocate to another room! Then we had all kinds of issues at delivery with the babe and had to do some resusitation stuff! Yikes! I wish I knew more so that I could be of more help in the middle of the emergencies! I'm a little useless in the crisis moment and in the OR!
Last, but not least, I got to see my first manual removal of a retained placenta. Sorry if I am totally turning everyone off from ever reading this blog again! I had never seen someone sedated with the meds that this anesthesiologist gave the patient. I could help but laugh behind my mask as the patient was coming back to reality. The comments she was making were hilarious! Too bad that you really can't fully hide that you are trying so hard not to laugh because it totally shows in your eyes! That was some trip she was on!
And to end the evening off beautifully, I got home a little while ago to a very special note from Shane written on our white board by the telephone. One of my dear friends from back home is having her first baby! She's 3 months pregnant! I so desperately want to talk to her about it...but they are having date night tonight so she's not home! I'm sort of bursting to tell the world!
I need to calm down...and it is sort of making me crazy that I'm in an appartment, alone, for the rest of the evening after all the crazy excitement. I think I need some ice cream. Freezer, here I come!
I worked a 12 today and it was jam packed with excitement! First thing this morning I saw my first delivery of twins! So cute!!!! It was extra special for me, because I kept of thinking about my Shaner who thinks he wants us to have twins one day! Yikes! It's not like you can plan those sort of things! And oooo....so much more work when there is two!
Then I saw another delivery this afternoon. It was insane! We had a mom who had never had a baby before...usually that means they take a long time laboring. Well, she shot from 4 to fully within 2 hours! We weren't prepared at all for delivery, nevermind the fact that we were using one of the tiniest rooms that we can't really deliver in and therefore had to relocate to another room! Then we had all kinds of issues at delivery with the babe and had to do some resusitation stuff! Yikes! I wish I knew more so that I could be of more help in the middle of the emergencies! I'm a little useless in the crisis moment and in the OR!
Last, but not least, I got to see my first manual removal of a retained placenta. Sorry if I am totally turning everyone off from ever reading this blog again! I had never seen someone sedated with the meds that this anesthesiologist gave the patient. I could help but laugh behind my mask as the patient was coming back to reality. The comments she was making were hilarious! Too bad that you really can't fully hide that you are trying so hard not to laugh because it totally shows in your eyes! That was some trip she was on!
And to end the evening off beautifully, I got home a little while ago to a very special note from Shane written on our white board by the telephone. One of my dear friends from back home is having her first baby! She's 3 months pregnant! I so desperately want to talk to her about it...but they are having date night tonight so she's not home! I'm sort of bursting to tell the world!
I need to calm down...and it is sort of making me crazy that I'm in an appartment, alone, for the rest of the evening after all the crazy excitement. I think I need some ice cream. Freezer, here I come!
Friday, June 24, 2005
Could I be a Nazirite?????? Could you be called to a lifestyle of a Nazirite????
"In the Scriptures, Nazarites were people of extreme devotion to God who, among other things, left their hair uncut as a mark of their consecration. By their long hair they were saying, in effect, "We are not interested in seeing how little we can get by with in our devotion to God, but how far we can go. We are literally exploring the lengths of consecration."
Another characteristic of Nazirites was that they did not drink wine or eat raisins or grapes, all of which represented the sweet pleasures of life. Abstaining in this way from the product of the grape was a Nazirite's way of saying that none of the pleasures of this life could equal the pleasure of knowing God intimately.
Persons of similar bent are arising in the Church today. Although they may not necessarily bear any visible outward mark of their identity, such as long hair, like their counterparts of old, these new radicals for God have a strong sense that they are called and set apart for a holy purpose. God has marked them as Nazirites.
Nazirites are special people. As the Old Testament reveals, God raises them up when His people are in great distress because they have succumbed to spiritual and moral decay. Time and time again throughout Israel's history, Nazirites turned the tide of spiritual and national degeneration.
Casual measures are not enough. The need of the hour demands something more: radical abandonment to God and extreme commitment to His holiness. This is the Nazirite call. This is the spirit of Elijah, and it is sorely needed in this hour."
(Elijah's Revolution by Jim Goll and Lou Engle)
So, I've always felt a little different. I don't know if I can explain it properly, and it may sound a little funny. I don't think that I am better than others at all. Bear with me as I try to explain.
Grew up in a more traditional church....never felt like I belonged. I was always disappointed with what was happening at church and wanted far more than I was seeing.
I've always felt older. Like maybe I'm too serious about a number of things. I feel so strongly about certain issues, like purity, marriage, honesty, holiness, that I sometimes have a hard time interacting with loved ones that are walking differently. I feel so strongly about holiness that I just can't fake it.
Sometimes I've wondered if I'm just a tad bit religious....you know in the midst of questioning why I feel the way I do. But, maybe it is something more than that. Maybe all along I've been called to something that just has looked a little different than normal. Values that I feel strongly about, because God feels strongly about. Maybe I am partnering with His ideas, values, morals and passions.
If God is calling me to live a life set apart for His purposes and His holiness, I want to do it. Wait, not"if", God is calling us to lives that are set apart. So, I'm in. I want to be apart of the army that is going to change this world through consecrated lifestyles and intercession. And I want my calling and destiny on this earth to be about calling others to lives that are set apart for the Kingdom. It has to be more than the past. It has to be more than half-hearted. It must require all of us. It must consume us daily. It can't be something that we forget about on certain days or put on the shelf when it doesn't conveniently fit the situation we are in. I don't want to preach a message that accommodates sin and individual preferences.
I want to put out a call to holiness and lifestyles that are set apart. Are you with me?
"In the Scriptures, Nazarites were people of extreme devotion to God who, among other things, left their hair uncut as a mark of their consecration. By their long hair they were saying, in effect, "We are not interested in seeing how little we can get by with in our devotion to God, but how far we can go. We are literally exploring the lengths of consecration."
Another characteristic of Nazirites was that they did not drink wine or eat raisins or grapes, all of which represented the sweet pleasures of life. Abstaining in this way from the product of the grape was a Nazirite's way of saying that none of the pleasures of this life could equal the pleasure of knowing God intimately.
Persons of similar bent are arising in the Church today. Although they may not necessarily bear any visible outward mark of their identity, such as long hair, like their counterparts of old, these new radicals for God have a strong sense that they are called and set apart for a holy purpose. God has marked them as Nazirites.
Nazirites are special people. As the Old Testament reveals, God raises them up when His people are in great distress because they have succumbed to spiritual and moral decay. Time and time again throughout Israel's history, Nazirites turned the tide of spiritual and national degeneration.
Casual measures are not enough. The need of the hour demands something more: radical abandonment to God and extreme commitment to His holiness. This is the Nazirite call. This is the spirit of Elijah, and it is sorely needed in this hour."
(Elijah's Revolution by Jim Goll and Lou Engle)
So, I've always felt a little different. I don't know if I can explain it properly, and it may sound a little funny. I don't think that I am better than others at all. Bear with me as I try to explain.
Grew up in a more traditional church....never felt like I belonged. I was always disappointed with what was happening at church and wanted far more than I was seeing.
I've always felt older. Like maybe I'm too serious about a number of things. I feel so strongly about certain issues, like purity, marriage, honesty, holiness, that I sometimes have a hard time interacting with loved ones that are walking differently. I feel so strongly about holiness that I just can't fake it.
Sometimes I've wondered if I'm just a tad bit religious....you know in the midst of questioning why I feel the way I do. But, maybe it is something more than that. Maybe all along I've been called to something that just has looked a little different than normal. Values that I feel strongly about, because God feels strongly about. Maybe I am partnering with His ideas, values, morals and passions.
If God is calling me to live a life set apart for His purposes and His holiness, I want to do it. Wait, not"if", God is calling us to lives that are set apart. So, I'm in. I want to be apart of the army that is going to change this world through consecrated lifestyles and intercession. And I want my calling and destiny on this earth to be about calling others to lives that are set apart for the Kingdom. It has to be more than the past. It has to be more than half-hearted. It must require all of us. It must consume us daily. It can't be something that we forget about on certain days or put on the shelf when it doesn't conveniently fit the situation we are in. I don't want to preach a message that accommodates sin and individual preferences.
I want to put out a call to holiness and lifestyles that are set apart. Are you with me?
Thursday, June 23, 2005
Ahhh.....great evening!
Seeing as it is 12:30am...and I could be sleeping but am not.....why not write up a quick blog! See, I'm done my stretch of 3 nights...and slept an 8 hour day, so this is normally the time that I'm up and working! I am a little tired but I probably could stay up longer. I'll do a quick blog and then I'm off to bed!
I love my girlfriends! I had a fabulous evening with a few of them! Loraleigh, Christina, Steph, Shauna, Bonnie and I all spent a great evening together! We first met at the movie theatre and watched The Sisterhood of the Travelling Pants. I totally enjoyed it! I pity any man who sits through it, but it is wonderful to see with a bunch of girls! I just had to give them all a nice, close hug after that heartwarming girly movie!
Then we went over to the Fyxx for drinks and chatting. We sat on the patio and enjoyed the warm, beautiful weather. I didn't even notice the misquitos until the very end! I love hearing how each friend is doing and what's new! And being with a few unmarried girlfriends means there is usually a great love story or two in the making that we get to be filled in on! Ahhhh.....love.........of course there are lots of squeals and laughs!
So, to my beautiful friends, cheers! This is what I enjoy about the 5 I spent time with tonight!
Steph - the most incredible sister you could ask for; attentive; always excited about what is happening in other peoples' lives; gives awesome hugs; definitely encouraging!
Christina - a constant friend; helps out in the rides department which is a real blessing!; a great listener; full of life and anticipation for the future!; dependable
Loraleigh - what can I say, she's one of a kind!; wise; open and honest; always investing in my life; makes an effort to hang out and join us (and she has 3 kids at home); makes you feel heard
Bonnie - we go way back!; just like the movie had a group of 4 close girlfriends, we were part of a group of 4 in highschool!; also makes the effort to hook up babysitting and grace us with her presence; is often heard laughing to a story that someone is telling; gentle and sensitive; I'm encouraged by watching her grow and do life
Shauna - she is a hoot!; always making you laugh; talks in a way that everything sounds like a story; she is a longterm kind of friend; very enjoyable to be around; quality girl
I love my girlfriends! If you are reading this and thinking about your friends and how much you enjoy them, let them know! That is my challenge to you all today! Hug someone and tell them what you love about them!
Seeing as it is 12:30am...and I could be sleeping but am not.....why not write up a quick blog! See, I'm done my stretch of 3 nights...and slept an 8 hour day, so this is normally the time that I'm up and working! I am a little tired but I probably could stay up longer. I'll do a quick blog and then I'm off to bed!
I love my girlfriends! I had a fabulous evening with a few of them! Loraleigh, Christina, Steph, Shauna, Bonnie and I all spent a great evening together! We first met at the movie theatre and watched The Sisterhood of the Travelling Pants. I totally enjoyed it! I pity any man who sits through it, but it is wonderful to see with a bunch of girls! I just had to give them all a nice, close hug after that heartwarming girly movie!
Then we went over to the Fyxx for drinks and chatting. We sat on the patio and enjoyed the warm, beautiful weather. I didn't even notice the misquitos until the very end! I love hearing how each friend is doing and what's new! And being with a few unmarried girlfriends means there is usually a great love story or two in the making that we get to be filled in on! Ahhhh.....love.........of course there are lots of squeals and laughs!
So, to my beautiful friends, cheers! This is what I enjoy about the 5 I spent time with tonight!
Steph - the most incredible sister you could ask for; attentive; always excited about what is happening in other peoples' lives; gives awesome hugs; definitely encouraging!
Christina - a constant friend; helps out in the rides department which is a real blessing!; a great listener; full of life and anticipation for the future!; dependable
Loraleigh - what can I say, she's one of a kind!; wise; open and honest; always investing in my life; makes an effort to hang out and join us (and she has 3 kids at home); makes you feel heard
Bonnie - we go way back!; just like the movie had a group of 4 close girlfriends, we were part of a group of 4 in highschool!; also makes the effort to hook up babysitting and grace us with her presence; is often heard laughing to a story that someone is telling; gentle and sensitive; I'm encouraged by watching her grow and do life
Shauna - she is a hoot!; always making you laugh; talks in a way that everything sounds like a story; she is a longterm kind of friend; very enjoyable to be around; quality girl
I love my girlfriends! If you are reading this and thinking about your friends and how much you enjoy them, let them know! That is my challenge to you all today! Hug someone and tell them what you love about them!
Tuesday, June 21, 2005
Craving sleep....hardly oriented anymore.......
-prayer at our place tonight....looking forward to it!
-dreaming about sleeping
-got my first IV finally started this morning! I am SO relieved, and proud of myself! And on top of it, the patient said she didn't feel a thing! And I even poked her a total of two times, one to draw blood and one to start the IV! I did good!
-the weather is beautiful
-tomorrow I get to enjoy the company of some great girlfriends....looking forward to that too!
-hope to not dream about work
-cranky nurses can be very upsetting to me - I have a really hard time working with them and not letting them get to me!
-I'm a fan of apple juice
Goodnight.
-prayer at our place tonight....looking forward to it!
-dreaming about sleeping
-got my first IV finally started this morning! I am SO relieved, and proud of myself! And on top of it, the patient said she didn't feel a thing! And I even poked her a total of two times, one to draw blood and one to start the IV! I did good!
-the weather is beautiful
-tomorrow I get to enjoy the company of some great girlfriends....looking forward to that too!
-hope to not dream about work
-cranky nurses can be very upsetting to me - I have a really hard time working with them and not letting them get to me!
-I'm a fan of apple juice
Goodnight.
Monday, June 20, 2005
Ahhhh...soon I will sleep!
Back on nights at the hospital. When I came in last night there was only 1 patient written on the board! I had never seen the board so empty. Well, 9 minutes into my shift, our first baby was born. That was fast and exciting!
Then, we got another laboring patient as the previous one was being transferred to another unit. I was totally involved in that delivery too! The doctor made the delivery (whew!), but my buddy nurse, whom I had only met that shift, had me do pretty much everything surrounding the delivery and recovery time. Wow! I think I'm starting to do this stuff a little better! I did all the charting, timed all the important events like the birth of the baby and placenta, did the baby vitals, did the newborn assessment, did the cord gases, etc, etc. I did most of everything, minus mom's checks! Wow, can language barriers be frustrating! My patient hardly understood any english! That is tough!
It was a really busy time, but I felt competent! I love that feeling!
So, I'm going to bed for the day now. It is so hard to go to sleep when I'd rather be starting my day with the beautiful weather outside! But, I got to take a walk in the beautiful outdoors for part of my trip home this morning! I'll quickly get to sleep so that I can enjoy the beautiful weather in the evening when my husband is home to enjoy it with me!
And, on one last note, happy father's day to my dad and all the other dads out there! We had a nice Father's Day and celebrated here at our appartment! That was actually a really nice change from the extended family gathering. Life is too complicated for too many extended family gatherings as we all get older. And frankly, I'd rather use these opportunities to spend time alone with my immediate family members! It was sort of like having a family gathering at my place! Kinda strange to think of it that way! I, with the help of Steph and Shane, cooked a big meal of what we call "The Earl's Dish", made a caesar salad and a homemade chocolate cheesecake! Mmmmmmm!!!
Off I go to bed! Have a beautiful day, y'all!
Back on nights at the hospital. When I came in last night there was only 1 patient written on the board! I had never seen the board so empty. Well, 9 minutes into my shift, our first baby was born. That was fast and exciting!
Then, we got another laboring patient as the previous one was being transferred to another unit. I was totally involved in that delivery too! The doctor made the delivery (whew!), but my buddy nurse, whom I had only met that shift, had me do pretty much everything surrounding the delivery and recovery time. Wow! I think I'm starting to do this stuff a little better! I did all the charting, timed all the important events like the birth of the baby and placenta, did the baby vitals, did the newborn assessment, did the cord gases, etc, etc. I did most of everything, minus mom's checks! Wow, can language barriers be frustrating! My patient hardly understood any english! That is tough!
It was a really busy time, but I felt competent! I love that feeling!
So, I'm going to bed for the day now. It is so hard to go to sleep when I'd rather be starting my day with the beautiful weather outside! But, I got to take a walk in the beautiful outdoors for part of my trip home this morning! I'll quickly get to sleep so that I can enjoy the beautiful weather in the evening when my husband is home to enjoy it with me!
And, on one last note, happy father's day to my dad and all the other dads out there! We had a nice Father's Day and celebrated here at our appartment! That was actually a really nice change from the extended family gathering. Life is too complicated for too many extended family gatherings as we all get older. And frankly, I'd rather use these opportunities to spend time alone with my immediate family members! It was sort of like having a family gathering at my place! Kinda strange to think of it that way! I, with the help of Steph and Shane, cooked a big meal of what we call "The Earl's Dish", made a caesar salad and a homemade chocolate cheesecake! Mmmmmmm!!!
Off I go to bed! Have a beautiful day, y'all!
Monday, June 13, 2005
It is a little belated, but.....better late than never!
HAPPY FIRST ANNIVERSARY TO MY HUSBAND!!!!!!!!
Our first anniversary was yesterday, the 12th of June. I'm so the reflecting and more emotional person of the two of us, therefore I had to reflect over the day by looking at wedding pictures and watching our wedding video. It was nice to listen to our vows we wrote a year ago and know that I would say them again today in a flash. I loved our wedding and it is so nice to think back...though a little bittersweet as it means it is only further and further into the past. A small part of me feels sad about that, but a HUGE part of me feels so excited about where we are now and the future ahead! I wouldn't go back at all! Only forward! I love marriage! So, welcome to year #2!!!! We'll see what's in store......!!!!!!!!
HAPPY FIRST ANNIVERSARY TO MY HUSBAND!!!!!!!!
Our first anniversary was yesterday, the 12th of June. I'm so the reflecting and more emotional person of the two of us, therefore I had to reflect over the day by looking at wedding pictures and watching our wedding video. It was nice to listen to our vows we wrote a year ago and know that I would say them again today in a flash. I loved our wedding and it is so nice to think back...though a little bittersweet as it means it is only further and further into the past. A small part of me feels sad about that, but a HUGE part of me feels so excited about where we are now and the future ahead! I wouldn't go back at all! Only forward! I love marriage! So, welcome to year #2!!!! We'll see what's in store......!!!!!!!!
Sunday, June 12, 2005
New steps........exciting and nerve-wracking!!!!!!
At 2:30pm today, I got a call which ended in hearing myself agree to sing....yes, sing....at Encounter God Night tonight. I am still in shock that I heard myself saying yes! I have had butterflies since that phone call and think I might be sick if I eat anything before I go!
I really don't sing...well, in public, or by myself, that is. In the shower, to a cd, with a church congregation, yes. In a mic, on a stage, no. Well, tonight that will be different. I don't think I have a great voice, at all. Generally I can keep a tune, but not all the time!
Strangely, this feels like a natural step in obedience. That sounds funny even to me. Natural? Hardly. Obedience? To what?
I just have a feeling deep within that small step of obedience, even when they are uncomfortable, are often the building blocks to even greater things. Strangely, this feels like one of those moments. If we are faithful with the little things, which I think even include little moments of stepping out and saying yes, we will be entrusted with much!
So, I say, BRING IT ON, LORD!!! ALL THAT YOU HAVE!!! I SAY YES, EVEN WHEN IT SEEMS STRANGE OR UNCOMFORTABLE!!!
(and would you please pray, fellow bloggers??? I'm a little nervous and really hope I don't totally suck!)
At 2:30pm today, I got a call which ended in hearing myself agree to sing....yes, sing....at Encounter God Night tonight. I am still in shock that I heard myself saying yes! I have had butterflies since that phone call and think I might be sick if I eat anything before I go!
I really don't sing...well, in public, or by myself, that is. In the shower, to a cd, with a church congregation, yes. In a mic, on a stage, no. Well, tonight that will be different. I don't think I have a great voice, at all. Generally I can keep a tune, but not all the time!
Strangely, this feels like a natural step in obedience. That sounds funny even to me. Natural? Hardly. Obedience? To what?
I just have a feeling deep within that small step of obedience, even when they are uncomfortable, are often the building blocks to even greater things. Strangely, this feels like one of those moments. If we are faithful with the little things, which I think even include little moments of stepping out and saying yes, we will be entrusted with much!
So, I say, BRING IT ON, LORD!!! ALL THAT YOU HAVE!!! I SAY YES, EVEN WHEN IT SEEMS STRANGE OR UNCOMFORTABLE!!!
(and would you please pray, fellow bloggers??? I'm a little nervous and really hope I don't totally suck!)
Wednesday, June 08, 2005
A busy baby day......
Today was a full day at work! I saw 2 deliveries, very much different from one another! One, a grand multip....which means your 5th or more baby...well, this one was well above the number 5! She made it look extremely easy! Also, that was a midwife delivery which is always a little interesting for me.....it is different what you do as the nurse when the care provider is a doctor or a midwife. The mom got a lot of use out of my hand throughout that labor! I think I'm going to have finger print bruises tomorrow!
As for the other, I was able to see an instrumental delivery for the first time. Not something that I hope to have to observe....it is unfortunate! I saw forceps used to get baby out. I like the natural way better!
Also on a baby note, but a happier one, I saw Brad and Colleen, from our housegroup, at the hospital today! They had a beautiful baby girl on monday and named her Naomi Grace! She has a head of dark hair and is very cute! Mom seems to be doing quite well and dad, Brad, is beaming with pride! I'm so happy for them! Congrats guys!
Well, tonight I'm having an evening with my sister! Oh, I really like her and am looking forward to spending some sister-time tonight! Shane's running off for boys night, so I'm having a girls night with my favorite gal!
Have a good one!
Today was a full day at work! I saw 2 deliveries, very much different from one another! One, a grand multip....which means your 5th or more baby...well, this one was well above the number 5! She made it look extremely easy! Also, that was a midwife delivery which is always a little interesting for me.....it is different what you do as the nurse when the care provider is a doctor or a midwife. The mom got a lot of use out of my hand throughout that labor! I think I'm going to have finger print bruises tomorrow!
As for the other, I was able to see an instrumental delivery for the first time. Not something that I hope to have to observe....it is unfortunate! I saw forceps used to get baby out. I like the natural way better!
Also on a baby note, but a happier one, I saw Brad and Colleen, from our housegroup, at the hospital today! They had a beautiful baby girl on monday and named her Naomi Grace! She has a head of dark hair and is very cute! Mom seems to be doing quite well and dad, Brad, is beaming with pride! I'm so happy for them! Congrats guys!
Well, tonight I'm having an evening with my sister! Oh, I really like her and am looking forward to spending some sister-time tonight! Shane's running off for boys night, so I'm having a girls night with my favorite gal!
Have a good one!
Saturday, June 04, 2005
"According to the Scriptures, a prophetic "Elijah" generation will arise also in the last days to prepare the way for His second coming. It will be a "faceless" generation in the sense that there will be not only highly visible leaders or "point" people who have incredible encounters with God. God also will place His prophetic presence on an entire generation, and they will walk in holiness and absolute surrender to Him, enjoying face-to-face intimacy with Him to an unprecedented degree. Yes, an entire generation of radical warriors shall arise!
This prophetic generation will not be interested in recognition, reputation or in making a name for themselves. Their only concern will be the glory of the Lord in the earth. Through prayer and fasting they will birth spiritual awakening and revival on a global scale that will bring deliverance to people in every land."
-From the book, Elijah's Revolution by Jim Goll and Lou Engle
Lord, would we be the Elijah generation.
Would You encounter us.
Would Your prophetic presence be on us.
Would we walk in holiness and absolute surrender to You.
Would we know You, face-to-face.
Would You make us radical warriors!
May our only concern be Your glory.
Would You teach us how to pray and fast.
Would You use us to birth spiritual awakening and revival on a global scale.
Would You impact our lives and our generation with the promises of Joel.
That we would prophesy, that we would dream dreams, that we would see visions.
Pour out Your Spirit on us in these days, in this time.
This prophetic generation will not be interested in recognition, reputation or in making a name for themselves. Their only concern will be the glory of the Lord in the earth. Through prayer and fasting they will birth spiritual awakening and revival on a global scale that will bring deliverance to people in every land."
-From the book, Elijah's Revolution by Jim Goll and Lou Engle
Lord, would we be the Elijah generation.
Would You encounter us.
Would Your prophetic presence be on us.
Would we walk in holiness and absolute surrender to You.
Would we know You, face-to-face.
Would You make us radical warriors!
May our only concern be Your glory.
Would You teach us how to pray and fast.
Would You use us to birth spiritual awakening and revival on a global scale.
Would You impact our lives and our generation with the promises of Joel.
That we would prophesy, that we would dream dreams, that we would see visions.
Pour out Your Spirit on us in these days, in this time.
Thursday, June 02, 2005
Walking in the fullness and the waiting......
You know when God gives you a vision or even just in inkling...or gives you little tidbits of what could possibly be instore?
You know that strange place where you are going forward yet almost feeling like you are standing still, waiting for the release? Waiting to know which way to go and when to jump in?
There are aspects of these thoughts happening in my life lately as the end of my life as I know it comes to a close. It is strange because for the last 22 years of my life, I generally know what is to come. Each year of school before grade 12, I knew that the next year would consist of the next-higher grade. I guess when I graduated the world was wide open and I chose what I wanted to do, other than education, for a year. The next year I chose to go back to school with hopes of becoming a nurse. Each year I know that in September I will be returning to school to work towards this dream. Well, this year is different.
The only thing that I know for sure, calendar-wise, is finishing my practicum July 20, going to Kansas City with my hubbie at the end of July for 10 days and writing my national RN exam on August 10. That's about it. The rest is wide open......waiting to be filled.......
And so, we pray. It is an exciting place to be at. Wide open doors. No job established at this point. No school to return to in September. A husband that is open and willing for new things. And a marriage that is hopeful for adventure and guidance into great and marvelous things that further our calling on this earth and into our eternal destiny.
"In this hour God is birthing a new refined prophetic faith message in the hearts of His children. To a people who cannot, He is saying, "I will do it through you. I am the God of breakthrough, the God of change. I am El Shaddai, the Almighty; I am Jehovah Jireh, your Provider. I will make a way where there is no way. Step out in obedience into that which you know not of, and watch what I will do".
You know when God gives you a vision or even just in inkling...or gives you little tidbits of what could possibly be instore?
You know that strange place where you are going forward yet almost feeling like you are standing still, waiting for the release? Waiting to know which way to go and when to jump in?
There are aspects of these thoughts happening in my life lately as the end of my life as I know it comes to a close. It is strange because for the last 22 years of my life, I generally know what is to come. Each year of school before grade 12, I knew that the next year would consist of the next-higher grade. I guess when I graduated the world was wide open and I chose what I wanted to do, other than education, for a year. The next year I chose to go back to school with hopes of becoming a nurse. Each year I know that in September I will be returning to school to work towards this dream. Well, this year is different.
The only thing that I know for sure, calendar-wise, is finishing my practicum July 20, going to Kansas City with my hubbie at the end of July for 10 days and writing my national RN exam on August 10. That's about it. The rest is wide open......waiting to be filled.......
And so, we pray. It is an exciting place to be at. Wide open doors. No job established at this point. No school to return to in September. A husband that is open and willing for new things. And a marriage that is hopeful for adventure and guidance into great and marvelous things that further our calling on this earth and into our eternal destiny.
"In this hour God is birthing a new refined prophetic faith message in the hearts of His children. To a people who cannot, He is saying, "I will do it through you. I am the God of breakthrough, the God of change. I am El Shaddai, the Almighty; I am Jehovah Jireh, your Provider. I will make a way where there is no way. Step out in obedience into that which you know not of, and watch what I will do".
Wednesday, June 01, 2005
And the trend continues....
So, as Erica commented, the effect that seems to be following me in the labor room, may be something that moms would really like....getting to fully in quick time!
Tonight I got to have another laboring patient. I (ya right...it's not really me at all) didn't do quite as well with the effect tonight. Instead of 3 to 10 in an hour, it was 7 to delivered in 1 hour and 45 minutes. The only thing was....I was by myself at 9cm!!! That was kinda freaky! I was a little afraid that this baby was going to come too fast! I got mom to pant through her urges to push for 15 minutes so that she could dilate that 1cm more and so that another nurse would come in before she started to push. Well, I quickly called the other nurse, I checked mom, and low and behold, FULLY AND HEAD RIGHT THERE!! Well, the doc made the delivery by 4 minutes on the nose!!!! Thank goodness!!! I felt so responsible for everything and everyone....mostly because my buddy was on supper and missed the delivery! So, the other nurse was helping me, but I felt like I was the one that was trying to be "the nurse" and doing the stuff!
Aww.....such a cute baby! Alert, content and adorable! I love it when the dads/grandpas ask me how many children I have. It is such a compliment to me because I assume...and will keep on assuming for the nice feeling it brings......that they ask because they think I look natural with the little ones!!! That is such a nice feeling!
I must say, it is a wonderful feeling to love your job. I've worked multiple jobs ranging from working with mentally-challenged adults, being a Santa Clause photographer, health care aid, retail worker at Please Mum, and finally a receptionist. Some jobs I've enjoyed more than others. But, I've not extremely enjoyed any of them to this extent. I hate the feeling of dreading going to work and being there and counting down the hours. Well, I had the great feeling this morning of actually waking up looking forward to this evening's shift! I was looking forward to coming to work! That is a great feeling! I love my job....well, it really isn't an official job....but what the heck, I LOVE IT!!!
So, as Erica commented, the effect that seems to be following me in the labor room, may be something that moms would really like....getting to fully in quick time!
Tonight I got to have another laboring patient. I (ya right...it's not really me at all) didn't do quite as well with the effect tonight. Instead of 3 to 10 in an hour, it was 7 to delivered in 1 hour and 45 minutes. The only thing was....I was by myself at 9cm!!! That was kinda freaky! I was a little afraid that this baby was going to come too fast! I got mom to pant through her urges to push for 15 minutes so that she could dilate that 1cm more and so that another nurse would come in before she started to push. Well, I quickly called the other nurse, I checked mom, and low and behold, FULLY AND HEAD RIGHT THERE!! Well, the doc made the delivery by 4 minutes on the nose!!!! Thank goodness!!! I felt so responsible for everything and everyone....mostly because my buddy was on supper and missed the delivery! So, the other nurse was helping me, but I felt like I was the one that was trying to be "the nurse" and doing the stuff!
Aww.....such a cute baby! Alert, content and adorable! I love it when the dads/grandpas ask me how many children I have. It is such a compliment to me because I assume...and will keep on assuming for the nice feeling it brings......that they ask because they think I look natural with the little ones!!! That is such a nice feeling!
I must say, it is a wonderful feeling to love your job. I've worked multiple jobs ranging from working with mentally-challenged adults, being a Santa Clause photographer, health care aid, retail worker at Please Mum, and finally a receptionist. Some jobs I've enjoyed more than others. But, I've not extremely enjoyed any of them to this extent. I hate the feeling of dreading going to work and being there and counting down the hours. Well, I had the great feeling this morning of actually waking up looking forward to this evening's shift! I was looking forward to coming to work! That is a great feeling! I love my job....well, it really isn't an official job....but what the heck, I LOVE IT!!!
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