I finished nights on Friday morning and have slept well since.
But today I find myself very awake. I tossed and turned for 3 hours, sleeping and dreaming. By 3 or 3:30am, I decided to get up and see if I could restart my night with a trip to the bathroom, a glass of water and stretching out the kinks in my back from all the tossing and turning.
It's 4:30am and I haven't returned to bed. I'm hoping my husband is sleeping without difficulty because whenever I wake up in the night, he almost always comes to check on me. Sure enough, tonight is no different. He's such a sweetheart =) I know he cares so much.
I've been praying and listening, waiting to hear what the Lord might have for me at this time of night. I have my uncle and my extended family on my heart. He's super sick in the ICU and I'm praying over that situation. Being awakened in the middle of the night, makes me wonder what is going on in that hospital room at this hour.
I also checked out a website that my sister sent me to look at (www.drawnfromwater.org). She's been updating me on this ministry called Drawn from Water for a while now and I love hearing her stories. Well, here I am, tearing up watching their video and longing to give and go from a world away at 4:30 in the morning.
Since returning from Haiti, my heart is so stirred to go on adventures with the Lord. I don't want the cares and concerns of this world, or fear or worry to prevent me from doing all the things the Lord has invited me to do alongside Him! My heart is drawn somewhere but I don't even know where.
Since I can remember, I have always had a longing to go to Africa. I've yet to be there. Haiti is the closest I've gotten. I hope one day to make it to Africa.
Tonight, and after watching and reading about the beautiful Mingi children, I so desperately want to go. I'm feeling the increased longing tonight. I want to go on an adventure with my husband and go love on some beautiful African children. The L & D nurse in me wants to catch some African babies. I want to have my heart melt over the things that melt Jesus' heart.
Oh Lord, lead us and guide us according to Your Will. Break in over the Mingi children of Africa. Spare their lives, rescue them and show them Your love through mamas and papas who love you.
